Week 15!

Week 15 has just begun for me and yesterday I was beginning to wonder when my belly was actually going to show up. Funny thing is, sometimes it shows up and sometimes it doesn't. I have been reading a bunch of books that say that women at this time are very self conscious about their waistlines and that they get freaked out. For me, I actually want to see some sort of a bump because the pregnancy doesn't feel real to me unless I see something. I am still getting sick, especially after meals and I'm still incredibly tired. It's amazing how much I can sleep when given the chance. I think I'm on 9-10 hours a night now and over the weekends, I add a few more extra hours during the day. I LOVE sleep...better get while I can! I am supposed to be keeping a belly journal and taking photos but I've been too lazy. I've only taken one and it was when I was at 8 weeks! Wow...I probably should start again. I have no idea which outfit to wear...

April 9th is my 4 month appointment and I can't wait. The weeks in between my appointments still give me worries. Sometimes I have Ben listen to my stomach and see if he can hear anything but I guess he's no Doppler. I'm not suring if I'm really craving any particular kinds of food but right now sweets and fruit are on the top of my list. I know what I DON'T want to eat. For some reason meats just turn me off right now, Indian or Thai food just makes me nauseous just thinking about them. I can't wait till the day I want to eat those foods again! There's only so much potatoes I can handle!

Today I had to "volunteer" at my company's fair in San Mateo. I say "volunteer" because it's one of those events where if you don't "volunteer" I'm sure I'll receive some sort of backlash. What trickery! Anyhow, I worked in the kids area and I made some realizations of what kind of parent I want to be. I witnessed parents that were so rude that I wonder what kind of an example they're setting for their kids. There were parents that just walked up to a table and took things without asking. They treated those items as if they belonged in their own homes. There were kids that took things without asking, without any "pleases" or "thank yous". I feel sorry for those parents that have no guidance for their children at all. It's very sad to say that the generations to come will have to work harder to achieve what older generations found easy. Just simple acts of politeness seems so rare these days. I am glad to say that I learn from examples and I'm so happy that there are people in my life who have shown me a way to become the parent that I imagine for my child.